sayonara

Yay! This blog is finally being shutdown and hopefully that 'sayonara' means someone can free up some space on the internet!

Except, no one can.

Yes, that's right.

Shock Number One: Shutting down this blog may not really delete that website forever from the face of cyber-space, unless someone from some mildly important seeming organization is actually asked to do it.

Shock Number Two: This blog is not being shut down.

Are you happy? If so, you officially fall in the list of 'people who I absolutely adore'. If not, hey..I don't blame you. My condolences, though.

Anyway..I am saying sayonara for the rest of this month. For that, you had to do all this,you ask? Of course I had to!
See, I have exams coming up (If you've read the last two posts, and you still don't know that then you're nor reading, are you!). So Dear Readers (assuming there is such a category here)..unless I am desperate to vent, I shall not be blogging for a little while. Hmm..in fact there's already enough about how VTU really bites, right? I think one thing that's definitely worse than studying under VTU is having a chameleon in my mouth. For sure.
(Thank you aditi, for helping me figure that one out. It took time, folks.)

So I shall doom myself to the vicious books, and only hope that I live to tell the tale (oh wait, but I've already said too much about VTU. Oh what the heck, I'm human).

Until then, I strongly suggest you either
a) send me some 'get well soon' cards
b) learn up all sarah jessica parker's lines in sex and the city (NO I will not put her name in capitals, what is wrong with you?!)
c) learn how to say "Hello, hello to you again" in japanese
d) read someone else's blog

And please put up links to all of this as comments. The japanese, the lines, or other nice blogs. If you can, that is.

*Hysteric waving good-bye..for now*

In the midst of this disgusting thing called a data stream

The weather is just so nice these days. Such perfectly lovely weather. La la la! Bangalore has finally, brought out what it does best..its delectable weather. People think the weather is something you talk about when you have nothing else to say. This might be true in awkward situations, but in my case, I talk about the weather because it has a DIRECT impact on how my day is going to be. Hot and sultry? Bring out the tissues and the complaints and the face wash and the many baths and the irritation and the deodorant. Sunny and Blue skies? Bring out the sunglasses. Windy and chill? Bring out the coffee and the smile on my face. Rain? Bring out me! Or bring out the umbrella, if I'm wearing white. Hehe...

So WHY am I doomed to studying for an exam I can't STAND right at this lovely time when others aren't? Why is my luck so terrible?
WHY must I subject myself to such a depressive state of affairs when I should be out there enjoying that vacation air? WHY WHY WHY!!??
July 4th will be a day where I will finally have endorphins in my system again.
(yeah, I know. Too much House M.D.)

Evil, I tell you. Lady Luck is just so evil to anyone who's in VTU. She just heads us toward intending doom, every single time. Bites us right where it hurts.
Sob!
Boy, I can't wait for this to end.
I think I need some Prozac.

human

Maybe you think this post was going to be a piece of amazing(hah!) prose or poetry, wrapping around what it is truly like being human, about feelings that resurrect inside, earthy, earthly thoughts about tendencies, the tender, fragile nature of the human race and our survival instinct and about how love is basically the answer to it all, because its the one and only thing that either binds us all together, or binds us to a death trap.

Well...it is not. I'm not quite that contemplative right now.

This post is about VTU, 've torture u' (watch the latest indiana jones flick..the vee will so ring a bell) and how it has essentially, ruined many aspects of my life, leaving me gasping for freedom and making me feel like the shackles of slavery have been imposed on me for WAY too long. Really. It has been an inordinately long amount of time since I have felt human. You know, creatures who are allowed to just be. Creatures that work, play, and a lot of the time, actually experience a feeling called "boredom". Creatures that are allowed to incorporate elements of human living, like vacations, recreation, seasons into their lives.

Nuh-uh! I am not allowed to do these things.

VTU, for those who are still reading this lamenting post (sorry for that, but really..I am human) has done the following things to my life:

1) I no longer understand the concept of 'a vacation'
People tell me that a vacation means, when you usually get a month or two off from college, you get to go out of station and have a good time.
Firstly, two months off??!!! Plus some weeks here and there, you say?
Wow!! Is that legal?
And secondly...when I get off, its usually a very short time and usually off season in most vacation spots. What does that mean?

2) I no longer understand the concept of seasons.
I thought holidays and seasons went hand in hand. You know, christmas vacation, summer vacation, holidays for these things. Since I get holidays (if you can call them that) only for three weeks in jan and three weeks in july, I'd like to know what comes during that time. Especially when the rest of my country gets off during april-may and dec. So this means I've got seasons and everything else completely wrong. Vacations all alone, and study when all your friends are off!
Sigh. Perfection.

3) I no longer understand what boredom means.
Throw in so many internals, externals and lab externals and extras, and boredom is out the window. Just meeting friends is now slowly becoming impossible. I can't remember the last time I said "Hey, i have nothing to do the whole day..lets do something!"

4) I no longer like what I'm doing.
Hey, if you were subject to NEVER being able to meet your friends and relatives without an exam looming over your shoulder, would you?

5) I am hence, no longer a positive person.
If you had problems 1-4, would you be?

My brains are absolutely totalled from studying. And the exams haven't even started. This year...is just going to be a nightmare. You know how most people say..I can't wait for next week, or next month?
I can't wait for next year! How's that?!
Now, what kind of therapy can reverse all this??

Signed,
Bugged in BSK.

Verse 162002 - A strain of vocal chord on my velvet pillow

Someday,
When I'm awfully low
When the world is cold,
I will feel a glow just thinking of you
and the way you look tonight

cause I'm a voodoo child
Lord knows I'm a voodoo child baby
I want to say one more last thing
I didn't mean to take up all your sweet time
I'll give it right back to ya one of these days

I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down

We're goin down, and you can see it too
We're goin down , and you know that we're doomed
my dear
we're slow dancing in a burnin' room

Don't you think we oughta know by now
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow

No change, I can't change
I can't change, I can't change
But I'm here in my mind, I am here in my mind
And I'm a million different people
from one day to the next

I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I’m right
I swear I knew it all along

I can be the moodiest baby and you've never met anyone
Who is as negative as I am sometimes

And if you're frightened
You can be frightened
You can be, it's OK

But if I didn't say it well I'd still have felt it,
where's the sense in that?

You're a part time lover and a full time friend
The monkey on your back is the latest trend
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

And it's not a cry that you hear at night
It's not somebody who's seen the light
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

A tiny flame inside my hand
A compromise I never planned
Unravel out the finer strands

Take out of your wasted honor
Every little past frustration
Take our all your so called problems
Better put them in quotations

There is no pain you are receding
A distant ship, smoke on the horizon
You are only coming through in waves
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying

We're too young to fall asleep
To cynical to speak
We are losing it
Can't you tell?

Always the summers are slipping away
Find me a way for making it stay

And I'm looking at a blank page now
Should I fill it up with words somehow?

Well it goes like this :
The fourth, the fifth, the minor fall and the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah

You see everything
You see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here

I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender

Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be.
There will be an answer, let it be.

Thank you, Lyricists of the world. I bow before thee.